How do they do it??

Okay, so this might come off as really self-indulgent.. but if I can't be self-indulgent on my own blog where can I be?

Robbie is still sick. And I'm not coping well. At all. Jason took him to the doc yesterday and he suggested it could be a urinary tract infection so sent him home with a bag to collect some urine. Of course, the first attempt was a dismal failure so he had to choof off yesterday arvy to get some more bags. I had success this morning and took it to the pathologist. They tell me its going to take 3 days to get the results. FUCK! So of course I ring Jason in tears (as any pms'y woman would). He rationally explains that they may need to grow cultures or something as equally gross in it. I've booked him back into the doctor tomorrow morning just out of caution - he's started to cough now too. Maybe there is some generic type of anti-biotic they can start him on pending the results of the wee test. Maybe there's not. Maybe i'm just being dumb for even thinking that way.

So - how do parents with critically ill kids cope? I'm a mess and he probably only has a viral infection. I feel as if nothing is worth doing.. why bother? I feel so selfish and hate that I seem to think so irrationally. Why can't I just take a step back and see things in a more rational way. Its not the end of the world.. he's just sick. He will get over it.